That’s a wonderful thing and I’m happy for you. Unfortunately, however, it somehow implies
that it’s a major character flaw if someone else does.
I’m just a little tired of some people that are in health
care positions or work in the pharmacy field treating me as though I’m exhibiting
drug-seeking behavior.
Of course I’m exhibiting drug-seeking behavior! I’ve got to have all this stuff to function.
But if I want to cut back, what do I give up?
Sleep? No.
Lower blood pressure?
No.
Less anxiety? No.
Less pain from neuropathy?
No.
Less depression? No.
I don’t want to sound defensive here, but I’d like to point
out that I did not prescribe these things for me. Several doctors over the years have added
this and that until I have a whole page of medications that I take.
If you know me in person, did you know that I take all of
these things? Did you guess that I have
high blood pressure or that I need help getting to sleep? Had it occurred to you that I was depressed
or anxious? Have you realized that I am
in pain most of the time from neuropathy and other things?
I’m betting you didn’t unless I had already told you.
See, it’s possible – very possible – to function well when
taking medication. Once you get all the
doses just right, everything rolls right along.
I doubt I would be alive today without taking blood pressure
medication for 30 years.
If I had survived that, though, sleeplessness for the past
25 years would have surely taken its toll.
I know for sure and for certain that I would not have climbed
out of the dark pit of anxiety and depression without help.
And without medication for my neuropathy, I might be in a
wheelchair.
Okay. I didn’t tell
you all of this to get sympathy. It’s
hard for me to relate this so publically.
But I feel it needs to be said by someone.
As a Christian, how do I explain having all these
maladies? Can’t God just make them go
away? Why hasn’t He answered my prayers
for healing?
Here’s my answer: I
don’t know. And I’m not going to try to
figure it out. God is God and He can do
whatever He wants to do.
One thing He’s done, though, is equip certain people to do
all the things necessary to develop a drug that I can benefit from.
No, I don’t see taking medications as a character flaw. I see it as God putting it in my path to help
me get on down the road.
You know, like the Yellow Brick Road, Abbey Road, the
Hollywood Walk of Fame? Just sayin’,
mind you…
if i don't take my meds, i die, again.
ReplyDeletelu davy
I'm so grateful for those meds! lu2
DeleteThank you for this well-written, transpaerent post. I'm a nurse practitioner, a committed Christian, and your post represents essential truth that all Christians need to grab hold of and hang on. Taking meds when they are needed says two things: I need someone to help me and will submit to his or her authority in the discipline I need right now. Humility is very much a part of what God asks of us,and submitting to counselors and medical types is, indeed, humbling. . I applaud you for your humility, as well as your willingness to share your pain with us.
ReplyDeleteSojourner, you took my breath away! You are very kind and I appreciate your heartfelt comments. But I have to tell you that when I prayed, “What do you want me to say? What do you want to tell your people?,” this is what came out of me and onto my laptop screen, so I can’t take credit for it. Trust me, I’m not that bright! I believe your comments say much more than my post. So thank you for contributing to God’s plan. As I understand it, He needs all of us…
DeletePreach on, sister!
ReplyDeleteLinda
Ha! Don't get me started...
DeleteI've been through similar, yet different (of course) meds...with all the guilt, empathy, derision, & stigma that goes along with it.
ReplyDeleteThe Rx's I take enable me to be the person I am...it's who God created me to be...and I wouldn't have it any other way.
Thank you for writing what God has placed on that big ol' heart of yours, Carol!
I wouldn't have it any other way for you, either, Cyn! For me, too, as a matter of fact!
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